Loving More Than One

Polyamory as it relates to my life and written from my perspective only. MY thoughts, feelings and opinions.

Been too long

on April 5, 2009

I had every intention of posting here about our polyamorous journey on a regular basis. I thought it would be natural for me to use this outlet. Afterall, the internet and I are bosom buddies. However, I found it not as convenient as my traditional paper journal. Mainly because the internet, and therefore this blog, are not available to me when I feel the need (sometimes extreme) to get things written out. the writing process helps me sort through things and at times it is important for be to get the thoughts and feelings in some kind of order as soon as possible. Especially if I don’t want those feelings to get out of control. I carry the journal with me pretty much everywhere I go. Until very recently I didn’t have a laptop only the pc we had at the house and my work doesn’t allow us to go to such internet sites. They monitor our activity. Besides, I really do have work that needs to be done. But if I happen to each lunch in my building instead of leave, I do have my traditional journal available and can write in it then.

I do enjoy perusing other blogs regarding polyamory when I have the chance. It’s like support for me in a way. Knowing others are going through some of the same things our quad has faced is nice and seeing how they deal with these issues has at times been a big help for me. So…..thank you to all who put your life out there for others.

As a quick update…our quad is stronger than ever. It has been over 2 years since we first started seeing each other and June will make 2 years since we all four exchanged matching rings. Our children, particularly mine and Dirk’s, are more accepting than they were. Partly die to the fact that, after all this time, it has become apparent to them that this is not going to split their family up.

We no longer have sex in the same room or in any kind of groupings other that heterosexual couplings between spouses and so. Although Arwen is bi and I am not, we were intimate for a while. That changed largely, I believe, to the fact that I had to tell Arwen that while I did love her and look at our relationships as one big marriage so to speak, I wasn’t “in love” with her like I am Dirk and Chane. And I have stopped feeling guilty about that. Turns out our relationship is being for that. We both know where we stand and are progressing rather well as friends. Maybe one day, she and I will be intimate again. I’m not adverse to that at all as long as it is kept in context. Does that sound off to you?


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