Loving More Than One

Polyamory as it relates to my life and written from my perspective only. MY thoughts, feelings and opinions.

I Need to Vent

I need to be a whiny baby. Nothing can be changed. Some one does have it worse than me but…I’m pulled in too many directions right now and do not have the money some of the directions require.

Work, with the accident, my work is behind. And this is one of the worst possible times for that. I need to be here more hours and not less but things still are not as stable with hubby as they need to be. I’m thankful to have a job but really need to be away from it for a little longer. Doing things piecemeal as I did last week may have cost me a mistake that I will end up paying financially down the road. It is what it is. And it isn’t the end of the world.

Hubby, he isn’t as better as he had hoped to be and will not be back at work today like his job wanted. If I hear one more person tell me he should burn the motorcycle I will scream. He is doing much better but now you have to add in the psychological frustrations of not healing fast, the getting tired of not being able to do as normal period and the having the ask for help.

One child is in the process of making a major purchase and he constantly calls checking in. He’s trying to do the right thing and knows that it’s his decision but with things as they are with us, he worries about things too. He’s moved closer to home and is job hunting.

The other child is job hunting as well and really would like to move back home too. Just trying to weigh the pros and cons of that.

Trying to get it all done is getting to be overwhelming for me. So, I had to get some of it out by whining a bit here.



I’m a blessed woman.

Hubby had a motorcycle wreck but is healing up fine. I won’t go into details for autonomy’s sake but things could have been much worse. He kept his head. So, lucky he is going to be ok.  So, is the bike (he was worried).

But what I’m also blessed  in is my husband. I’m tired. He’s able to take care of himself mostly now but with doing all I had to for him in the beginning, trying to work some because so much of what I do is in my head and stuff like that, and then doing it all at the house, I’m even more aware of how much he contributes to that household in terms of work.

We don’t particularly have his and her chores. A few because we each do have our strong suits and some are obviously done better by one than the other.

He does so much. I listened this morning to one woman complain about working all day and coming home to having to cook by herself at night. So many women have to do that. I don’t. I can’t really think of anything he doesn’t help with other than checkbooks and such.

He’s great. I know this. And I do try not to take it for granted at any time. But, him being out of commission just makes me really take stock.


Nice Lazy Days

Dirk and I have been on vacation. Nice lazy days at the river.

I’ve needed this but wasn’t aware of it until I was there. I would have loved for us both to have had a whole week off but I’m thankful for the long weekend we had.

Just he and I. The woods and a bit of hunting for him. Crocheting for me but on things I was wanting to try and not orders I have. (Bad of me I know but as he said, you are on vacation.) Watching old TV shows that it’s been years since we’ve seen. Eating nothing fancy or special at all. Sleeping. The days just flew by.

A little of a crisis in one child’s life we helped deal with but not too much.

I’m off three days this weekend and was wondering about the possibility of staying longer but the logistics of work may not make that feasible at this time.

It’s been a while since I’ve wished I had a solid week off from work. It’s just not often a possibility and I accept that.

I’m in a good place this morning though. 🙂



Felt Like Adding a Bit of Color To My World In Some Way

As you can see, I’ve changed my blog theme. Several new themes have come out but weren’t three column as I had my set up as.

When this one came out, I was in the right mood to do the editing it would require to go to a two column one. I was in the mood for some color I guess. I like the bigger font in the posts.

I’ll give it a go for a bit. I really do tend to gravitate towards bold colors in real life so this is not a stretch for me.